As I walked home from the Dr’s office
and reviewed everything that was said about the In Vitro process, my stomach
hurt. Up until that time, everything the nurses told me was good. Your hormones
levels are good, you have lots of follicles (early stage eggs), the follicles
are progressing well, you ovulated! Yay! All affirmations that things were
going well.
And then during this last appointment, I heard:
You have too many follicles.
Your progesterone levels were low.
It was very matter of fact to me, not really meaning anything.
And then he started to explain.
During the In Vitro Process, there are shots.
Ok… I can do that.
And we have to be careful with the
excess number of follicles.
Ok… lets be careful. Not a big deal.
And then you and Thomas won’t be able
to be together because you will both be having a different procedure done at
the same time, miles apart.
Well that’s lame. But ok. We can do
that.
And then once the procedure is done,
you will have to take progesterone for the first 12 weeks of pregnancy.
Ok… I can take a pill for 12 weeks.
No, they will either be injections or
suppositories.
Wait. What?
Really? 12 weeks? Is there no other
way?
Maybe we should adopt. And not embryo
adopt like we had planned through this whole process, because I would still have to go through all this In Vitro process if we
did that.
But adopt a living child. One that
doesn’t include 12 weeks of injections or suppositories.
But no, that is not where we feel God
is calling us at this moment.
So we go forward. We wait another 2
months for healing and we pray. We pray that God works a miracle and our bodies
work how they are created to work. And that my progesterone levels heal
themselves and increase to normal standards so I don't miscarry. For the 3rd time.
Pray.
Because we believe in a God of miracles.
Because we believe in a God of miracles.